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Mendocino Writers Conference- Part 2

The Morning of the Conference

Writing part two of my adventure at the Mendocino Writes Conference in Mendocino, California, has taken me longer than anticipated. Late summer and fall projects, Thanksgiving, and the holidays got in the way. So much happening, so little time. 

Now, at the dawn of 2025, I realize that my creative world is alive with new possibilities.   

That morning of the conference, as I stood in the registration line, I took in the diversity of the attendants- many different nationalities and ages, including teenagers. I recognized a few people from a past writers’ group, but most were strangers. The more I looked around, the more I realized that no matter our ages or our backgrounds or anything else, the one thing we all had in common was utilizing the written word to create magic.

In fact, as we all enjoyed breakfast in the large conference room, the conversations started.

“What do you write?”

“What workshop are you in?”

“Have you published anything yet?”

“What are your writing goals?”

The answers were as diverse as the attendees, from never published to several stories or books written. As for me, my answer was that I had published four short stories, had won some short story writing contests, and was currently working on a novel. Today, I answer that I have published four short stories, completed my 62,000-word novel, and am in the preliminary stages of editing. Now, I can say with certainty that the reason I was able to finish my novel, which was around 30,000 words or less when I attended the conference, was the three glorious days.

Speculative Fiction Writing Shop

When I walked into the classroom for speculative writing, I immediately felt at ease with the small group of about eight sitting at joined tables. After introductions and a brief yet informative lecture from the instructor on the nuts and bolts of speculative fiction, we began workshopping each other’s writing. This is when you receive feedback on the precious piece you have spent hours crafting, and you also provide feedback on other authors’ work. This process can sometimes feel brutal, even when feedback is delivered with kindness, and other times it validates our creative decisions, making you feel as if you’re walking on clouds.

The most important thing about attending a workshop is to listen and take notes while others talk about your work and give their honest feedback on what worked and what did not. You will have plenty of time to answer questions once your work has been fully dissected and everyone has provided their feedback.

When my two chapters were on the table (pun intended), I loved how everyone engaged with the character and her motives, as well as the tension I had created in the scenes. Much of the story revolves around church dogma and a centuries-old spiritual practice rejected by religion, so it was essential for my prose to be believable.

An important aspect of a creative writing workshop is the critique of your work. This critique is not criticism but rather suggestions for improving your writing. During this time, you must keep your ego in check and listen attentively while taking notes. If someone asks a question about your story, answer it, but keep your response brief. As mentioned earlier, questions are addressed at the end of the discussion for good reason: you hear more when you listen. 

Finishing Up

My big takeaway is the value of reading other writer’s work because it allowed me to step outside of my own world and into another’s. I become immersed in stories that are not my own. Also, seeing what does and does not work in other’s work informs my writing regarding technique, character, and structure. During this workshop, I did not read one piece that I did not find valuable.

This workshop also inspired me to finally finish my novel. When I attended the conference in August, I had reached around 30,000 words. On November 10, 2024, I typed “the end” at 61,211 words. That’s over 30,000 words in a little over two months! Last week, I started editing my work, which can be frustrating and exhilarating at the same time! 

Have you ever engaged in a writing workshop? What did you learn? 

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Where Attention goes….

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At least that is what I have seen manifest in my own life. Whenever I have focused on anything, whether it be positive or negative, it has happened, and often with exaggeration. I’m not talking about the things that happen in life that are beyond our control, I am talking about intent to move our creative self in a certain direction.   

These last several years, I have been working hard on keeping my eye in the realm of positive.  Not in the way of saying I don’t want something to happen but by putting it out there exactly what I do want. 

Focus can be general, such as I want to succeed at my writing.  This means at the minimum putting words to paper, but anything beyond that is relative and open to interpretation.

Focus can be specific, such as I want to publish my novel.  This means completing my novel to the best of my ability and taking all the steps necessary to get my work into print, whether it be self-publishing or taking the traditional route. 

Each day that I focus my energy on writing and take the time to write is success, and each step forward takes me closer to my end goal. 

I have been setting aside 45 minutes to an hour most days to write on my novel. Sometimes it’s 200 words, other times it’s 500 and upwards. This is my selfcare just like walking and running or mediation and prayer.

Where is your focus?   

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The Mystery of My Great-Grandfather

For years I have been delving into genealogy, especially after my maternal Grandmother, Hazel, died and I was gifted with a box of her research that none of the family wanted or understood. The box was large and heavy with binders, notes, photographs, and treasures that made my heart sing and set me on my journey toward researching my maternal family lines. Sometime later, I was also gifted with two volumes of rich well-written stories of my grandparents’ lives during the early 1900s, as told to one of my aunts. The truth is, I always knew more about my maternal side than my paternal, but I had a mystery to solve.

Grandma Hazel was the family historian for many years but she was never able to find information regarding Grandpa Marty’s mother who died when he was three years old. In those days, before the internet made family research commonplace, it was difficult to get your hands on essential documents unless you made a trip to the building where the information was stored, or you wrote letters and waited for weeks for a response. In the quest to find my great-grandmother, I easily picked up where Grandma left off.

Grandpa’s mother’s name was Johanna “Hannah” Buetow Bauman. For hours each weekend, I worked on Ancestry dot com looking for information to piece Hannah’s young life together. After digging, I found a census record showing that she lived in Minnesota in the late 1800s until her death. After I pinned down a city and details about her father. I finally found some online newspapers that led me to both her and her father’s obituary! However, I was not able to access the information due to a paywall that I could not afford. As I was about to give up, I contacted the appropriate newspaper to see how I could get the two obituaries for less than a subscription price. By providing details that I already knew from family stories and from my own research, I was offered the obituaries via email at no charge!

So, here is the story of my great-grandmother Hannah Buetow who passed away in 1919 at 27 years years young, leaving behind four children ranging in age from six down to two years old. Grandpa Marty was three years old when Hannah died, and his heart never forgot her.

The headline in the newspaper reads in big bold capital letters: MOTHER OF FOUR DEAD.

The subtitle reads: Sad Death of Mrs. Hannah Buetow Bauman in Itasca County – HERE FOR BURIAL – Two Weeks Earlier she Accompanied Family to New Home.

The obituary tells the story of a young mother with hour children who followed her husband to a small claim he held in the wilderness of Itasca County, 20 or so miles from Deer River. He had gone ahead to get the house everything ready for the family, and two weeks after Johanna and the children- Alvin, Harold, Martin, and Elise- arrived she was dead with Diphtheria. With the plethora of obituary details, I was able to strengthen Hannah’s branch to my family tree, and I was able to see what type of person she was- kind, caring, and very loving.

This type of experience is what I love most about genealogy; searching for detailed information about ancestors so that I may get an idea of what type of person they were, what they cared about, and how they went about their daily lives. I

Next time, I hope to share the story of my paternal great-grandfather who died very young. In the meantime, fruitful searching and happy writing!

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Pandemic- What Happened?

It’s been two years since I’ve written on my blog, simply because I did not make myself sit down and write. Oh, I tried, I swear I did!  I occasionally put my butt in the chair, but I could not make the words come. I thought about writing but could not make the words come because they chose to stay in some dark place, stagnant, without a journey.  Instead, I chose art as a mode of expression.  I took art classes and learned how to channel whatever was going on inside of me onto paper and canvas.  

That was before fact-based science and ridiculous conspiracy theories splintered the world, then shattered it, while a pandemic pushed us into a state of emergency.  Some of us—yes, me too—listened to the science and sheltered in place.  I delved more into my art.  I became depressed and worried.  I participated in National Novel Writing Month and got about 15,000 words of a story written.  I created more art but my well of words seemed to run dry more often than not.

The truth is, I can’t figure out what happened during this whole pandemic. I am lucky to have been  working from home since mid-2017, so the pandemic did not change my physical life much, except I could not longer go to the gym or sit at the local coffee shop and chat with friends on my lunch break.  I was also blessed to have my husband during the pandemic, not to be alone like so many other people were.

The pandemic also showed me a whole viewpoint that I was not aware of before. I found myself intolerant of people who touted conspiracy theories about the pandemic, or politicized or religicized (yes, I know this is not a real word) Covid, or simply chose not to follow health guidelines.  Now, in my own community, I have no interest in those businesses that did not respect others during the pandemic by wearing masks and following health guidelines.  I felt like I was ultra-focused on what was going on in the world instead of the stuff that I wanted to get done in my own life.

Now that things are starting to return to normal, I’m feeling more motivated to write. I recently continued working on a short story and I have been researching magazines to send my already completed stories to. I have opened a “shelved” novel and considered the ways that I can revise it or utilized parts that can go into another story.  I have actually starting put in the work required to be a writer.

The pandemic has brought to light that my belief has been that motivation is a motivator when it’s really just an excuse not to sit down and write. For me, motivation is another word for procrastination or laziness, or not taking the time to work on my stories but adding hours of guilt for making that choice. 

So, this is it—to be a writer I must write. I must take action  It might just be working on this blog today, but tomorrow it can be working on my current short story.  And the next day I might not write anything at all, or I might revise my novel. 

Words on paper equal writing. 

Writing is one percent inspiration, ninety-nine percent sitting down and writing.  Like I have done now. 

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Commitment

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Years end is about reflection and the New Year about welcoming. There is no more self-scolding about what I could have done, and no more resolutions about what I will do. There are only possibilities arising from what has been and what can be, life-enriching snippets that bring me into the present.

The Ghost of Should’ve Done Past

I have always beat myself up for not writing more, especially as December progresses toward the first day of January. I tell myself nasty lies that elicit guilt for not doing.  I would be a successful author today if I had finished writing that novel instead of allowing 365 days of dust to gather on my hard drive, or invited those characters invading my head-space to a robust life on the pages of a short story.  Oh, if only I had queried that article on world views in a small community, I would now be a big-name journalist.

If only, if only is such a self-debilitating disease, along with should’ve, would’ve, could’ve.

Yes, I scold myself for neglecting the things that I was not ready to do and create more excuses for me to wallow in self-pity and guilt.  After all, if I had been ready to finish that novel or write that short story, they would be done by now. 

This ghost wants me to show me all my failures in a light where nothing outside of what I should’ve done looks good.

The Ghost of Resolutions Future

Each year I make resolutions to get stuff done. I make a pact with myself to finish that novel this year that I did not complete last year, to write more short stories, to start being this and stop being that, to start doing this and stop doing that, and to become an all-around better person.

Yes, I resolve in the New Year to become a different person, so much so that not even I might recognize myself!

Well, the truth is that resolutions are just mumbo-jumbo derived from the guilt of letting another year go by without working on the projects that burn in my soul but somehow never get done. Resolutions are a by-product of disappointment over my character traits that lead me down roads that are not healthy for me, so I tell myself that it’s time to start taking a different road. To make a long story short, the ghost of resolutions future wants to lead me into the land of unrealistic expectations.  

The Angel of Perfect Present

Now that I am in present-day 2019, I can clearly see how I have set myself up for failure by allowing the Ghost of Should’ve Done Past and the Ghost of Resolutions Future to rule my life.  There is no power in beating myself for what I have not done or in making that wicked list of resolutions.

The Angel of Perfect Present has clearly shown me that resolutions have no solid foundations, therefore making them pre-meditated disappointments.

The Angel of Perfect Present teaches me that everything I do must be in the moment, in the here and now.  If I am truly serious about picking up old projects or starting new ones, I must take the first step, and followed by a second step, and continue taking those steps down that winding path with plenty of forks in the road until I arrive at my desired destination.

Now, destination does not always mean a completed project, but perhaps the building of smaller parts of a puzzle until the picture is complete.  This can take an hour, a week, sometimes a year or more.  In fact, it takes however long it takes! 

In the past I have limited resolutions to fiction writing, all the while beating myself up for not getting those words on paper.  Berating myself for not realizing how my characters and what they want.  It’s all this negativity that I have allowed to stand in my way of realizing my accomplishments.

In fact, if I take a good hard look at my life’s panorama, I write just about every single day in my work as a paralegal.  A big part of that life is taking facts of cases and putting them into…what?  A factual story, which in the writing world is called non-fiction. While I love to write about cases, I admit I am motivated by that paycheck twice a month, and the accolades I receive when I do a good job. 

So, now I’m back to the fact that I would love to complete my novel as well as write more short stories.  Well, this requires me to come up with a plan, or a commitment to write so many words or spend a half-hour or an hour working on my novel. I even have the option to commit myself to writing two or three times a week, or every other day, whatever works for me. The point being, until I take that first action step (which I have not), this wanting, if you will, is nothing but a resolution either being tossed around or waiting to be executed into a solid plan.

Maybe instead of ending this article by saying, “Yep, that’s it, the plan is in place,” perhaps I will make a commitment to write on my blog next Saturday.  If I put something on my calendar, I am committed.   So, there……I have entered my next blog to be written on Saturday, January 19, 2019, at 8 a.m. It doesn’t have to be fancy, it just needs to be. 

Remember, no more resolutions, just commitments.