It is my fault that I am awake at 3:18 on a Tuesday morning and here in my home office writing this article. I should have known better than to drink a mocha at 8:30 in the evening, and to allow my mind to get bogged down with “stuff.” I will undoubtedly go back to bed soon and try to sleep another few hours before getting up at six to get ready for work. I am feeling plenty exhausted about now.
So, what’s keeping me awake?
Changes. Huge changes are happening in my life.
I opened the door to opportunity, my feet hit the pavement, and now the forward movement is happening with grace and the right speed. This action is enough to keep me motivated but not to knock me off my feet.
It took me some time to get to a space where I was not fearing change. For some time, I was allowing my confidence to waver because I was so busy focusing on what the end result should be instead of experiencing the moment. In fact, a quote from The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe best describes how I was feeling for a while:
Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
My lesson is this; opportunity is not about the end result but about my footwork in working toward my goals. I don’t get to say what happens in the end, or how it happens, but I have complete control over the steps I take to get what I want out of life.
So, change, continue coming into my life because I’m ready for you. One hundred percent ready.
These last seventeen months have been ones of overload leading to renewal and a fresh perspective, and what feels like a new lease on life. My partner recovered well from his heart surgery. Late last spring, I changed law firms and now walk less than sixty seconds to my office. To celebrate all of our good fortunes, my partner and I spent a beautiful week during September 2016 in Rockport, Massachusetts with his family. Sometimes we visited castles, museums and islands, and other times we sat on the front porch eating snacks, sipping beverages and talking about memories and experiences.
I wish I could share that I have gotten plenty of creative writing done this year, when in fact my attention has been focused on writing articles for the Reap Record, the newsletter for Redwood Empire Association on Paralegals. I also, upon invitation, wrote an article on construction defect for our local Bar Association journal.
My creative writing has been on the back burner for too long, but now I am pushing myself to submit a short story to our local anthology. I am exactly ten days away from the deadline and about 500 words in, with the story allowed a maximum word count of 2500. All stories submitted for consideration must be about Sonoma County. Two of my characters are from the late eighteen-hundreds who lived a small town in the northern part of the county, and my main character is from the same town in the mid nineteen-seventies. In fact, if you were sitting in my office right now, you would see the pictures of my characters pinned to my bulletin board, along with photographs of that small town that burned down years ago.
Now that I am back in action mode, I have decided it’s time to set some goals:
- This week I will complete my short story and submit it before the deadline.
- This weekend I will work on my tax returns.
- Next week I will complete my article on family law for the Reap Record.
- During the coming weeks, I will do the necessary footwork for a mutual project in the works.
Finally, it’s time to get devote at least an hour a day to sitting in the chair and working on my stories. At some point, I will also decide whether to permanently shelve my novel, or refurbish parts into a new story.
Happy writing all, and always allow words to empower you.